Breaking down

We all have our break down points and I think last night was definitly mine. I decided to get on the website for BYUI and check out EVERYTHING. I was reading about all the campus sports, which will be amazing, they have a competitive basketball league that you try out for, and you have uniforms, practices, and everything, so i'm pretty excited. And I can also be on the track team!!! So I can still to hurdles and shot and disc. AND play softball and volleyball. So there I was all excited, and then it sorta just hit and I totally lost it. I realized how scared I really am. I've moved back and forth between so many places in my life that you'd think that I'd be used to it and everything would be fine. But really I think its the total opposite, becasue I know how hard it is for me when I do have to move on to the next place. I can't imagine being all alone up there. I can't imagine not having everyone I have with me now. I've thought about all these things before, but its never hit me as hard as it did last night. Maybe this is just part of the process, kinda like going to the dentist, I'll get myself SO worked up before I actually get there, BUT when I get there I'll realize it was SOOO much better than I expected. That's what I'm planning on for right now. Oh and last night they had practice math placement tests on the website so I took it and I was surprised at what I could remember, but there was still alot that I knew I knew how to do I just couldn't remember how. SO I've decided that I'm gonna do like an online math program thing, because math is one class that I don't want to be struggling in. Especially if I'm planning on taking 18 credits. Gotta start trying to make things easy now.
OH AND
I'm excited for this weekend. I think me and my mom are going to go up to Garden city and just hang out for the day and then come back. We were going to go camping but then we realized that we didn't end up with all the camping stuff :(. But thats ok it will still be fun!